I HAVE FOUND MYSELF AT A CROSSROADS

December 14, 2022October 2, 2025CHRISTINA DITZEL Leave a comment

AS WE REACH THE CROSROADS OF LIFE, WE CAN REST IN KNOWING WE ARE NEVER ALONE!

(NOTE: This material is different than most of my writing. I hope you can appreciate my humility and transparency in the following material)

WORDS FROM MY JOURNAL 10/14/2022

“I am feeling confused and lost today. I am trying to get vision for Gods purpose in my life, but I have found myself at a crossroads. Do I continue to write? Do I focus on my cleaning business? Or do I create videos and speak about all the good thing/miracles He has done for me? I know in my heart I’m supposed to follow Him, share my testimony’s, share His words, then put on my armor and have faith. But still, I am so uncertain in this season of my life! Which messages are the thoughts in my own head, and which messages are the discernment from the Holy Spirit? What is the message God is trying to send me? Is it God or am I clinging on to my own understanding of the way things work this world?

IN TIMES OF CONFUSION BE STILL

When my discernment is tainted by society, I get confused and unsure of myself and my goals. When y discernment and my decisions have been tainted by the media and it becomes difficult to see my life through a clear lens. My mind is all over the place. Do I continue to write? I do love it and get lost in it. Do I focus on my cleaning business? I have grown tired and hate the work because of its inconstancy to produce the life I desire. And I really think I would have to change the name, because the name I have does not do a good job at describing my business. Which means I would then have to apply for a new fictitious name, new license, business cards, and change my domain name. Not to mention I would need to rebuild my entire website with the new business name/domain. UGH! The reality that hits when you don’t have vision or make decisions in a time of confusion! That seems like too much work! Is it worth it? Maybe I should just create videos and podcasts! I could speak about all the good things/miracles He has done for me. All the transformations I have made in my life and help someone else avoid those mistakes I’ve made. This makes me feel good but is also inconsistent, takes time to produce, and won’t offer any financial stability right away.

All the questions we have when we reach a crossroads. One thing I have learned from this situation I have found myself in today, is that I will not make any large choices or purchases without vision. This is a time to sit still, pray, get into the WORD, and not make any big decisions. Have you been here? Have you been so confused about a certain area of your life that you just wish someone would come and tell you exactly what to do and when to do it? Ugh! Life since Covid has just been completely insane for so many of us. Sometimes, I just wish I could go back to 2018/2019 when my life felt normal and was fill with laughter, joy, financial stability, good health, community, and a feeling of complete gratification. Today I have found myself at a crossroads, because I do not feel the same sense of emotion that I had in that year. And I know we all have these great seasons where we are on fire for life, and then something, or someone, comes along and distracts us and knocks us off course. Well, if you are in a season like this, walk with me. I know it feels like life has just brought you so much heart ache, but I promise, there is a season coming with unexpected blessings and unexpected acceleration. Right now, is not a time to make harsh decisions. Let’s just sit back, be still, get into the word, pray, and pay close attention to the words we hear. This is a season of learning something so we can be prepared for what is to come.

HEARING GOD SPEAK

Can I start by saying, STOP MAKING THIS MYSTICAL! And stop trying to turn off all the signs that lead you to the bible. The Bible has lots of WORDS and multiple books and amazing stories! But recently one thing has become very clear to me and that is, when Jesus said, “Those who have ears let them hear”. (Mathew 13:9) The authors of the bible never said, “Read the word” it says “HEAR THE WORD”. When we read the word alone without distraction in a room by ourselves, we can read the words out loud. Or we can whisper it to ourselves. But let your ears hear so that you can get the instructions that are there for your ears, and your ears only.

When we are paying attention and when our ears ‘hear the words’, the message becomes very clear. And our vision becomes clear too. When God feels we are ready, He will not hesitate to come in the middle of the night and wake us up with plans. Plans to prosper us and not harm us. (Jeremiah 29:11) But if you could just get the strength to listen and do the work, He has prepared for you, I promise you feel purpose begin to drive you. You’ll be tired, and you will want to lay there and just meditate on all the thoughts in your head. But don’t toss and turn and lose the moment! These come as ideas that you received from reading the Word and being aware of your own gifts and talents. If you want it bad enough, and have good intentions, God will show you favor in countless ways and doors will begin to open. You won’t even have to touch the doorknob; He will do all the heavy lifting for you. These come as miracles. The things you can’t explain. You know you have had seasons where you didn’t think you would make it through a storm, but something happened a miracle….

Hearing God means reading the word and listening to what it says to you. Just like a song can touch you in one way and connect with someone else in another way, Gods Words do the same. Heed discipline! (Read proverbs and HEAR what the words speak to you).

YOU CAN’T DO THIS WITHOUT JESUS

Look I have done life so many different ways and I can tell you that listening to Jesus is the only way to walk through this life with any kind of peace. Following his example is the only way we are going to find our own way. And the reason is this…

Your human nature has you ignorant, naive, selfish, blind, and you don’t even know what you want, never mind what you need! You go through the motions of life on repeat! Year after year your relationships look the same, your work is just a job you don’t have passion for anymore, you could probably work harder on your health, and you do nothing different to better any of your life circumstances. You have been doing life your way or following the lead of everyone else and yet you don’t want to even try to follow Jesus? Let me just say that Jesus is not religious, or a cult. Following him does not mean you have to judge or gossip although many churchy people might have given you that impression of him. And I am sorry. If I am honest, I was one of those churchy people before, and I have also been affected by those churchy people before. Today I have a changed perspective and know Jesus as a friend, a teacher, a creator, a soulmate, and guiding light. He is someone who made sacrifices for me so that I could live my best life with amazing experiences. I realized in all my doing and living, that life was full of trauma when I tried to take the lead. I’ve realized that I can’t do anything in this world without Jesus taking the lead. And honestly, I don’t want to.

Imagin, there was a new ride at Disney, where you could take a ride on an Avitar dragon that would fly you anywhere in the park you wanted to go. Would you rather be the first person to go for a ride and test drive it? Or would you want someone else to go first and make sure it doesn’t have any malfunctions? I hope you said you would rather have someone go first! Well, that is what follow Jesus is like. He goes first! But he won’t just stop there! He will also stay with you on the journey, if you allow Him. When you let Jesus in, He will make all your crooked paths Straight. (Isaiah 45:2-4) You can try to do everything in your own strength and in your own understanding, but I am certain you will find yourself at a crossroads again very soon! But if you find yourself at a crossroads and you make the decision to follow Jesus by hearing His Words, your “crossroads’ will become straight and stay straight season after season.

LET HIS LIGHT SHINE AND HE WILL MAKE A WAY

In a season with crossroads, feeling alone only gets us more stressed out, making irrational decisions. Our choices make every season of life worse off than the last. Doing life, the way you want, will only leave you spiraling out of control again and again, year after year! I have tried to do life following the rules of everyone else and ended up pissed off and angry because I didn’t prosper in a season that showed great potential. I have tried to do life my way without any help at all. That just led to feeling overworked, alone, disappointed, stressed, and exhausted. I have also tried to follow the lead of media influencers and people who I thought were smarter and wiser than me. Come to find out, all the hustling and grinding only caused me more debt and put me in the hospital with health issues. You can listen to all the people in the world, but no one will shine a light on your life and make a way quite like Jesus does.

I don’t care what your beliefs are, and I don’t care if you trash this blog. I don’t even care if you unfollow or defriend me! I am sharing the good news and hoping my readers find clarity in their crossroads today! Im just a messenger here to give you good news. “You are not alone!” There is a helper at your crossroads, and His name is Jesus. He chose to sacrifice himself on a cross to make a scene in a time when rulers wanted the people to live in fear. Today, the rulers do the same. The rulers want people to stay sick, starving for food, desperate for money, and craving material things. But Jesus came to say that those things have no real meaning in your life. He came so that you would hear His words two thousand years later and make a decision to follow Him so that you can have life and live it fully. “Where your treasure is there, your heart will be” (Mathew 6:21). Open your eyes and ears to His Words and learn to discern your own life. I know the struggle is real. I know it sucks right now. I’m right there with you. But He is with us too! All we have to do is be still and Let His light shine and make a way.

“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet water and he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil,
for you are with me, your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows.
Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalms 23

I hope you enjoyed this post. It is difficult to open up with strangers. It is even harder to decide between what the readers want and what I feel called to do. I am feeling a huge shift in my life coming, and for years, I have felt called to ministry. I just never thought I had the gifts required. Until I discovered and embraced the skills I do have. I invite you to come away with me on a new journey this year. I believe this is going to be a season of unusual acceleration for me and those of you who follow me. As I continue to follow Jesus and allow myself to be guided by his Words, I will share the lessons that encourage me. My hope is that you will join me in conversations of encouragement and accountability. As we reach the many crossroads of life, we can rest in peace knowing we are not alone!

Remember, He has died on the cross, and He has risen so that you may have a life full of opportunities. Don’t waste another day. Rise up in faith and trust.

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YOU WILL NEVER RECOVER IF YOU CONTINUE TO DO THAT!

July 24, 2022October 2, 2025CHRISTINA DITZEL 2 Comments

You Can’t Recover Unless You Know What You’re Recovering From.

Why do so many of us agree to be locked up for a year of recovery? And why is it that so many of us relapse afterwards? And how many of us have to keep losing loved ones because rehab isn’t working? Not everyone has to agree with me or my logic, on recovery, but it may be helpful to listen to what I have to say about it. I have overcome heroin, opioids, pills, GHB and Cocaine addiction Afterall! Consider being open to what it is I am saying about recovery, because I have not just overcome addiction. I live an organic, healthy, happy, and clean lifestyle after recovery. I have discovered the key to unlock the door to “letting go of bad habits”! Do you know how? Well, not by getting locked up in rehab for a year or going to meetings every week for the rest of my life, and I am definitely not on medications that make me feel foggy, that is for sure! NO!!!

I uncovered the reasoning behind my addiction! Just because I have a completely different belief system, that may or may not contradict some of the things that they teach or do in their facilities, does not necessarily mean I am “wrong”! I am eager to share my method, because I want them to look at recovery completely different. There can be a new approach in how we treat some people in recovery it doesn’t mean they have gotten it wrong all these years, just because I am bringing a different approach to the community. Not at all! But it does mean that maybe we need to realize there is no “one size fits all” where “recovery” is concerned! In fact, when professionals close the door and stop listening to people who have overcome addiction without medications, it is not only ignorant, but also the reason so many people relapse. When these facilities are closed minded and don’t listen, it causes people to overdose after they have left rehab and relapsed. Let me start off by saying, in recovery and in life, there is no “ONE SIZE FITS ALL!” And I am tired of watching a system fail year after year, because books a degree overrides a person with actual experience!

I never went to rehab, and I found their system flawed, I remember cleaning one summer at a rehab center and I could always tell which ones would make out alive, which ones would be back, and which ones wouldn’t make it past the program doors. First, I found a few things to be odd in the program. One was that in the first phase of the program they keep you from family and friends and they expect you to disassociate your past life with your now present life, which is being locked up and isolated from everyone you love and care about. Basically, this is to help you focus on yourself and loss your old life so you can start a new one. And I get all that! Changing of the surroundings to have a renewing of the mind. Yes, I get it! It’s biblical and it appears to be common sense. But the reason this doesn’t work is because after a year, they throw you back into the jungle without any real tools, boundaries, or knowledge on how to avoid returning back to old habits. They assume you’ve rehabilitated based on the new atmosphere and routines they gave you. While you were locked up and needed permission to do everything!

But how does that work? The bottom line is you haven’t recovered because you haven’t answered the one question of what you’re recovering from! Sit and ask yourself, WHY do you do the things you do in the first place? There is so many other factors to focus on rather than the substance itself. Which by the way, has just become a “bad habit”. Children pick up habits for different reasons. For comfort when they’re parents don’t show validation or show them love. (Keep in mind we all have a different love language). Some people have had childhood trauma or complex trauma, which turned into codependency or even narcissism. And we all know codependency is used all the time in recovery, As is Bipolar and other labels, we use to describe a person with substance abuse issues. See, things that we experience from childhood into adulthood has major impact on a person’s reality. The things that have happened to an individual in the past matters and when they have not been addressed properly, they find soothing mechanisms that are detrimental. These come in different forms. We can call it addictions, obsessions, compulsive behaviors, escape, or any other word that describes temporary pleasure with a negative result.

What Lenz Are You Looking Through??

So, when we don’t take the space and time to fully understand what we’re recovering from, we don’t have the clarity to see ourselves through our own Lenz, and we can’t fully recover because it is unclear what we are recovering from. Putting a band-aid on a femur bleed will kill a patient, it will never help them fully use that extremity to its full potential. We have to stop putting band-aids on our pain to solve trauma that is happening beneath the surface. I can tell you this, your addiction does not come from the substances you’ve chosen to use or the things you have made a habit in doing. As long as you keep focusing on “recovering from the substance” you’re avoiding the actual cause and reasoning of why you picked up this “habit” in the first place. So, remember when I said most rehabs won’t like what I have to say? Well, that’s because I don’t believe in labeling “addiction or recovery”. In fact, I hate labels period! Furthermore, I never understood why they medicate people who are supposedly addicted to substances. They don’t push meds on those addicted to gambling, electronics, video games, social media, sex, serial dating, money, or other “bad habits” that can be considered “addictions”.

Truth is your addiction is just a bad habit, and when you go back to your old environment that habit along with all the people who joined you, blamed you, hated you, and pushed you to the edge, will be right there waiting for you. When will rehab centers realize all the people and things, they prevent you from seeing in the first phase of rehab, are right there when you get out? Ask yourself these 12 questions if you are looking into rehab or considering going back to rehab for a 2nd, 3rd, or 4th time.

What happens when you leave?
Have you built enough boundaries?
Did you build the confidence in yourself that you will need?
Are you still codependent?
Do you have narcissistic thoughts, behaviors and patterns?
When you leave how will you feel as an induvial soul?
Have you recovered from the pain that caused your addiction?
How will you react when faced with that pain or other adversities in life?
Are you different now and are you really prepared to go back to your old life as someone different?
Do you have plans to live in different environment with likeminded individuals?
How do you change a bad habit when the habit is your own actions?
Did you learn how you will cope with curtain people, or circumstances that you’re going to face when you get out?

All questions relevant to the person in recovery because that is rehabilitating after all right? To “restore (someone) to health or normal life by training and therapy after imprisonment, addiction, or illness”

You have to be transformed and confident in who you have become, because you carry yourself around with you everywhere you go. Including into your future outside of rehab centers and AA/ NA/ or any kind of “A” Meetings. In rehab the key is to rehabilitate and become someone different, but how can you become someone different when you’re not given the opportunity to find or define your own true essence. People tell us how we should think, feel and live, but they have never actually walked in our shoes. So who are they to say what will work or not work? After you’ve been locked up for a year, doing what they tell you, under their “controlled environment” your expected to be rehabilitated and be able to cope with life after you leave. Real life is not controlled or predictable. Real life happens! Yes, we can choose the to live a happy, healthy, life, but if we have never experienced a happy, healthy life, what are we comparing it to? The rehab centers interpretation?

Truth is that most people going through rehabilitation have mixed emotions when leaving the center on their last day. What are they leaving and what life are they going into? Some are scared on their last day to go “home” while others are excited, and some believe they have all the skills they need to survive real life. Until reality hits them across the head once again! They’re dating relationship fails, a door shuts in their face on a job they’ve been wanting, death, trauma, financial struggles, parenting or coparenting, all the things that cause hardship. The adversities of life that send people in fight or flight, cause people in “recovery” to relapse! Being in recovery does not necessarily mean you’ve changed. When you plan to go to meetings every week and collect your yearly coin and keep a label around you that says you are a “recovering addict”, you remain in recovery. That means you’re not rehabilitated. You will always live victim to your bad habit, and nothing changes. You will continue to fight the battle to stay clean by going to meetings which continue to remind you of your addictions, your illness, and your inability to live a normal happy life. And that my friend, keeps you in recovery for years! And you will always be in recovery with that mentality. But if you can change your mindset, your awareness, and your environment completely, and then turn your addiction into a bad habit instead, you can overcome it and you begin to heal almost immediately!

To me addiction is just a bad habit and if you can learn to have a habit you can unlearn that habit as well. The question should be how did the habit start? Where did we learn the habit? And WHY did we turn to this particular habit? If we don’t know WHY we’re doing something we can’t learn how to stop it or prevent it from happening again.

I Recovered from My Addictions, Because I Knew What I Was Recovering From!

Most people relapse because they are too focused on quitting the “addiction/bad habit” instead of realizing they have not actually addressed the thing that is causing them to have the “addiction/bad habit” in the first place.

Most rehab centers are not open to hear my philosophy on recovery because it goes outside the scholarly books. But I believe that every person has a different experience during recovery. I don’t believe there is a “One size fits all” in treatment. In fact, I don’t think there is a “one size fits all’ in anyone’s individual journey. Why we treat different people, with different experiences, different health issues, different cultures, and different addictions, the same way, I will never understand! That did not work for me, and I know it’s not working for others, because I’ve lost so many loved ones to their so called ‘addictions”. (Can we just call them Bad habits that cause unhealthy lifestyles)?

Our Addictions Are Bad Habits Picked UP From Our Past Experiences

The adversities that I’ve overcome, only happened when I listened to my own inner voice. I call this my innate being! My soul or “God inside me”. Only you know your life journey. You know the struggles, passions and adversity you’ve had to face. And you know the struggles and actions that you will have to make moving forward. The adversity in our life is what keeps us in our bad habits! Not the bad habit itself.

Do you even know what you’re recovering from?

Five things you need to do if you ever want to really recover from any addictions ..

1. Understand why you do what you do

2. Become someone completely different

3. Change your mindset and be around new likeminded people (not people still recovering)

4. Stop talking about the things your addicted to as if it still controls you.

5. Realize you have a bad habit and you can Break your bad habit.

Most people stay in recovery forever because they keep rewarding the addiction. I never understood the coin that symbolizes a time lapse not using. Get it…”time lapse – relapse” Stop and think about that for a second

You break your addictions when you realize it’s just a bad habit that you picked up at a certain time in your life. And When you go back and learn WHY you started in the first place; you can begin to understand HOW you can overcome. Without the worry of relapsing or staying in recovery because you took some of that time and space to understand your own thoughts, emotions, and your reactions to those thoughts and emotions.

I know this is not the traditional way of treating addictions, but this is how I did it. And like I say so often, there is no one size fits all in our human existence.

If you have relapsed, know someone who has relapsed, or interested in learning my method of recovery, let’s talk. I may be able to help you.

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THE SECRETE TO OVERCOMING ADDICTION FOREVER (Part 1)

August 6, 2019October 5, 2025CHRISTINA DITZEL Leave a comment

Part 1 | The Mindset

The Addiction Journey

Let me please first start by saying to those who are actually hear seeking help and concern for a loved one, thank you for taking the time to read this article. It means the world to me that you found my blog and I hope you find value in something here today! Yes, I know I am going to get a lot of slack for this article, but I honestly don’t care anymore! I am not here for those who don’t want to believe in change, I am here for those who NEED to believe change is possible! And not just Change but transformational change! Let me just add that I have “Been there done that” on both sides of the spectrum, so I come from a place of hard love, but TRUTH! Besides you don’t have to read this article, there are others out there that will patronize you with their “medicine, degrees, and book smarts”! That is no me! I am an honest individual who writes based on personal experience and through trial and error of life’s messy influences, I have overcome many obstacles. Some things include, sexual, physical, and mental abuse, homelessness, jail, in and out of shelters, and even went into hiding from my attacker which led to my addiction to drugs and alcohol.

Not everyone will resonate with me or my concept and that’s okay. I am used to people not understanding me. (Giggles) Maybe you understand the process that most addicts go through. Maybe you have a friend, family member, or loved one who is fighting an addiction right now. Or maybe you lost someone to substance abuse due to an addiction. Let me first say I am sorry for you lose. I have lost many and I am certain I will lose many more to the illness. But there is hope for change! My mission is that through my own experience I can share my journey and it will cause a ripple effect of that change. A change on how we look at addition so that we can treat it differently! We need to do better! Either way we look at it, you are reading this because the title caught your attention and if you are wondering if there is a way to actually “OVERCOME ADDICTION FOREVER”? I am here to tell you YES! Yes, we can overcome the label of addiction and we can live normal happy lives. Actually, we can overcome anything and everything, including addictions but we must be willing to look at it through a new lens and do some things different.

I can say this with full confidence because I HAVE DONE IT! So, for those of you who will read this and want to throw your “un-belief” systems, professional scholars, and medicine” at me, go right ahead! Because I have overcome all kinds of abuse, and I will overcome your nasty, opinionated, comments as well! I am not actually here for you anyway! Like I said, I am here for those who NEED to Believe! Not here for those who live in doubt, fear, and are incapable of understanding the power of wisdom and mindfulness!

Real Help for Addicts

I know it’s not easy admitting we need help, or facing our difficult situations, but if you are still here, you have a purpose and there is more for you. Let’s make a difference in your life, your family’s life, and in the life of those who suffer from across the nation. So, to start I want to begin with some obvious facts about addiction that keeps addicts not only stuck in addiction but never really living life they feel is “normal”.

Facts that keep you stuck in Addiction

“Recovery” keeps us in Recovery forever. Call it a “bad habit” instead, and really overcome it. Move on! (Easier said than done, I know)
Mindset is everything. You’re living in the old life. As long as the person you were exists, you’ll never Live as a new person in a new environment, with a new life.
You feel sorry for yourself. (Constantly Blaming others and not facing your issues keeps you in a state of making “excuses and justifying” your addictions)
You keep thinking and saying your life is too hard! (Remember someone else always has it harder and they get through it)
You make excuses! Once you decide to change your life, you have to stop making excuses “why you can’t live life”!
You’re not thankful for your life and the opportunities that you DO have available to you right now. (Fill up with Gratitude)
You keep dwelling on the past and on the shit that pisses you off! Learn something new, love today, Let go of the past and Let GOD guide you to new paths!
You must step forward if you ever want to move ahead. (Do something different than before)
SUCK IT UP! Life is hard sometimes, we all have hard times, learn from it, grow from it, and discover new ways because of it.
You are not mindful of your own thoughts, emotions and actions. Become aware of the body, mind, soul connection.
Stop worrying about everyone else! Focus on YOU!!! And ONLY YOU!
Learn to Date yourself before you date someone else. (Get to know yourself and learn to love yourself first and foremost)
“Be single not settled” (Know what you want before you settle for what you don’t want)
Don’t make any big decisions. Don’t make big purchases unless it’s to help you learn grow and expand in a healthier environment.
Express the expectations you have for others. (But remember to Do what YOU say, and say what YOU do)
You give up to easily on the things YOU want. Shit is hard, deal with it and push forward but don’t give up so easily!
Stop listening to the belief systems that are contrary to your inner beliefs
Discover your new path that excites you.

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By doing all the above you allow yourself to begin healing. You then become more aware and capable of making better decisions moving forward. When you become your OWN person, your belief system works for you and your purpose in life, Bringing you complete joy, happiness and abundance. Here is the kicker that I have learned about addiction centers. “They say they want to help us ‘recover’, yet the word alone keeps our mental state in “recovery” forever”. And I know many of you don’t want to go to the meetings and be reminded of yur addiction week after week, year after year. If you don’t get right in your head, you will be stuck in a place where people are constantly looking at you like “you’re the problem”! Instead of getting to the actual source to overcome it completely you will be fighting with people who don’t care to know the real you! Don’t get me wrong. I’m not totally “anti-rehab center’. I just have my own system to overcome addiction by eliminating words that distort the mindset. And the process to actually “overcome” addiction is less complex than most people make it. I can tell you this, most addicts don’t want to just live life as a “recovering addict”. The label sucks and it keeps us stuck thinking of our past personality, our past environments and always talking about our past traumas. That is not fixing anything, and it dam sure is not helping anyone overcome addiction, depression, manic behavior or helping them live a happier more fulfilled life. My system is not for everyone, and that is okay!

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I am one person I don’t have the means or time to help everyone. I am not trying to change the entire world. That would be nearly impossible. But I do believe I can change a small piece of the worlds puzzle. The pieces filled with people who feel unique and different and want to belong and not just exist. “Nobody wants to exist in this world without purpose and meaning”. No one wants to just exist feeling stuck living in other people’s beliefs systems. Isn’t that why we are screaming through social media, protesting and causing havoc right now? No one person was created to live life uncomfortable and unknown! And so, not everyone has to like what I say but we should all be open minded to hear what others have to say. If I can resonate and impact one life and that life goes on to help another, then I have not only made my ripple effect into the world to make it a better place, but I also felt loved, in unity with another human. I felt appreciated and special because I helped another, person. I didn’t’ feel neglected because of my trauma but instead I used it to help others overcome or avoid it completely. I didn’t feel alone in my thoughts, ideas, or emotions. because I got vulnerable, and someone said “YES YES! I FEEL THAT! I HEAR THAT! I RESONATE WITH THAT!” And that is what every single individual wants right now. Right? Not just addicts or the mentally ill, but all humans crave empathy, compassion, and acceptance.

For those of us that have always felt special, unique, and different it is important that we learn to accept ourselves before we allow the world to make us feel unworthy because we are different! Because that is where addiction begins. Some of us find it easy to make it day to day with our daily struggles, while others choose to destroy themselves in the struggle. I have lost so many friends, family, and loved ones due to this “addiction” label! And the many other Labels that keep people abandoned and mistreated. Today, I am DONE! I am just done being quiet! And I’m done watching so many loved ones die because they are being labeled! I am done watching this world divide us because of our differences. WE ALL BLEEED RED! It doesn’t have to be this way! We can all be different and live a happy and fulfilled life in the same world! It is a choice! It’s a mindset!!!!

I don’t understand how I Made it through without rehab, and other people didn’t make it a year out of rehab! Yet they went to the professionals! They went to the meetings! They took the medications! And Here I am, and they’re gone! I don’t understand why so many people keep doing the same thing over, and over again, knowing the success rate of addiction is not getting better! As doctor Joe Dispenza says, “This is not the time of just knowing, this is the time to be doing”! There is too much information out there right now, for us to be doing the same damn thing, year after year, trying to get better results! Most rehab centers are lacking! Let’s start doing better! Let’s start listening to the people who know better! The people who have been through it. Let’s stop shutting out other options and start listening to all the different ideas of those who have taken the journey. Stop underestimating the power of the mind and medicating everything! You know chemicals cause reactions so why do we continue to medicate and cause more of an imbalance before we even clean out the system completely of all toxins? And I mean the exterior and interior! Let’s try harder to find a common denominator with addiction so that we can pinpoint the problem before it happens! Let’s take a journey together and learn how to beat addiction and overcame it FOREVER! Let’s work harder to remove all addictions from our life and learn to be mindful of our thoughts, emotions, and actions so that we can avoid and prevent bad habits like this one. We are capable of coming up with a solution so we can avoid “overdoses” from happening in the future.

Are you aware that most addictions begin when life throws something at us that we are unable to manage, cope or deal with? We basically pick up bad habits like drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, and the like, to numb ourselves from our own reality! That’s right! We act out by doing things that numb us mentally, emotionally, and physically from the events that are happening in life. If we can acknowledge that, we can limit the addiction rate by teaching our children to cope with their issues at a younger age. We must start a new cycle by teaching our children awareness. However, awareness must start with the parents first! The home is where we listen, learn, observe, experience, and build belief systems. When we are not mindful of these things and we just live in a state of “going through the motions”, these things define our character and determine the paths we take in life.

Maybe we should begin this journey with “awareness” for people to be better parents so that the children can learn how to cope with life. Then again it should probably start with the parents, right? As parents are the ones that should be leading their children without the dependency on substance abuse, or any other bad habits that can become addictions. Parents should lead their kids to experience proper skills for how they should properly manage life when struggles come along. Listen, life is going to happen! That is just LIFE! You can be 100% certain life will come down on you at some point!

But without being faced with bad or difficult times, you wouldn’t even know what good even looks like! I hate to break it to you, but you must learn how to maintain yourself during the ups and downs of your own journey through life! Life is not going to be unicorns and rainbows all the time! That is fantasy world, and the fact of life is this, sometimes we need to hit rock bottom to know where we want to go! Your personal journey would have no balance without the GOOD AND BAD experiences! If it was all good, you would never have a reason to push forward into newness! Yes, I said “NEWNESS”! Don’t you want to have new experiences, new relationships, new environments, and a new life?

If you never experience anything different you will never experience anything new. How do you think humans learn and grow? We experience life, good and bad, and we become stronger for it! How about we try to find solutions to our struggles with more poise, instead of getting angry, depressed, or frustrated. By acting out we are placing a label on ourselves and as we go through life, and when we do that, we give permission for “the professionals” to call us clinically depressed, bipolar, manic, an addict, etc. And we end up with labels placed on us based on our behavior. Society says, “just give them prescription medications” (drugs). Which keep us unfocused, loopy, and completely unaware mentally, spiritually and physically”. I say, “become aware of your environment, your circumstances, your conditions, and yourself ‘mentally, spiritually, and physically and learn to love all that you are”. Love all the messy parts of yourself and all the blessings you’ve already received, because it makes you who you are!

My past addiction is not even something I think about anymore. Accept when I am trying to feed into someone who is in recovery or currently in their addiction. Today, I can actually go out and have a drink and live a normal life without thinking I am going to have a relapse! I never worry about relapsing and my family is not worried about me overdosing or getting back on drugs when my life gets a little difficult! Adversity is part of life; we are all going through something. Regardless of what “the professionals” teach us, addiction is just a bad habit, and habits can be broken! Like the habit of working too much and not paying attention to your kids. Or using your phone too much and not even being present with the people who you say you love! Or continuously lying to your loved ones because you gambled all your bill money away. So, if anyone tells you that it’s a disease and it can be treated but not cured, they’re lying!!! Your addiction is a bad habit and habit can be broken!

I think alcohol and drug use is the culprit of most illnesses like aids, STDs, HIV, and many other diseases. I don’t believe it has anything to do with race color or ethnicity. Unless we are talking about statistics based on an individual’s beliefs. I am not going to talk about that right now. For that sake of this article, I am sticking to topic, which is addiction. So, what I do believe is that depression, psychological disorders, and trauma cause people to resort to drugs, alcohol, and other substance abuse, and addictions. So, there is a cycle that we ignore in “addiction”, and that is, they are just people with a bad habit caused by some trauma or underlining issue they have not learned to manage or cope with. BOTTOM LINE!!! Why do we treat the use of drugs and alcohol as a disease with more drugs? It makes no sense to me!

One Solution to Overcoming Addiction

Let’s lose the label altogether and treat these people as regular human beings with just a “bad habit”. They are choosing to live a lifestyle that they have become accustomed to for some reason. And as a friend, family member or professional therapists, our only job is to help them overcome this addiction by helping them discover their WHY. That way we can help them learn the HOW to stop! And please, when they want help, they will send signs and ask for help and that is when we should help. But I guarantee most families had a chance to help early on and failed to listen! Because people don’t listen anymore! They’re too busy talking listening to their own voice. Everyone is out for themselves, and everyone is so quick to judge others without looking in the mirror at their own reflection. Many people have become selfish, greedy, power hungry, narcissists who don’t listen to their loved ones. They sit back and judge them when they don’t agree with a specific belief system and yet, they refuse to listen, and I mean really listen! This behavior has gotten so out of control because poeple don’t see the signs of a person crying for “HELP” before they progress into something dangerous or into unhealthy habits! So instead of friends, family, and professionals helping these individuals, we unintentionally make the problem worse. When we pretend everything is fine it only allows more time for our problems to fester and build! Making people feel like their thoughts, feelings, and emotions are abnormal is a dysfunctional way to treat someone to make change. And maybe they are completely dysfunctional. I have had some dysfunctional thoughts myself back in the day. But for that same reason, instead of me seeking help, I chose to save myself and almost died in the process!

The divine will catch you when you fall
but you must be the one to get up!
Christina Ditzel

Continue to Part 2 | “How to overcome addiction”. Where I will go over step-by-step instructions to overcome addiction. I will give you simple steps for the addict, and for family, friends and professionals to discover new ways of helping these individuals. Because at the end of the day, EVERYONE has changes to make. Not just the addict!

If you need more advice in other areas of your life, please comment below, and follow me on social media. You can find my PODCAST at ZEN LENZ MEDIA ON SPOTIFY. or just grab my book “Hot mess to totally blessed” on Amazon Today. This is how you begin your journey into an abundant life. Living in abundance is a lifestyle choice…

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How to Go from Pain to Purpose

June 20, 2019October 5, 2025CHRISTINA DITZEL Leave a comment

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“Your pain can be used for the Greater Good”

I know that sounds sooo cleche, but what if I told you I have used my pain to get closer to my purposeful & abundant life? What if I told you that you could literally change your circumstances (no matter what they are) and you can turn them into cash flow? Oh yeah! I just said cash flow! Are you with me now? Yea that’s what I thought!

The key here is that you can’t hear just “cash flow”. You should never go into something “GREAT” with “Greed” at the center of your reasoning behind your actions. So you got really interested in this article after you heard the words “cash flow” this article is for you. I want to help you lose the greed and come from a place of gratitude, love and humility. You must come at this with a MINDSET of feeling completely satisfied with your current situation and love your circumstances. That’s right, I said “Love your Circumstances”. And do you know why? Because your thoughts control your emotions, and your emotions get so over the top and out of control that it causes you to “act out” from these “feelings and reactions” that create your character. The person you are right now, today is only a result of your experiences.

You have this idea that the world your living in is all you have. This is it! Get up, go to work, to make the money, to pay the bills, eat, sleep, maybe party a little on the weekends, hang with the kids, invite friends over for BBQ’s, etc. etc. And no matter how hard you try to be happy and have fun, it is always short lived. You sit in traffic and someone cuts you off and your entire day is stressful and anxiety driven. You live in stress and anxiety each day and yet you wake up each morning to do the same damn thing over and over, day, after day, after day.

This routine you have found yourself in is what you call “your life”, And the people, places and things you surround yourself with are making up this stage you now call “Your Life”. Basically, you get all your experiences, which make up your thoughts, which then turn into emotions or feelings, which becomes “Your Character” in this world you actually created yourself. If you are still here I am excited to tell you that you have the ability to change your world! All you have to do is change the experiences you’re having right now.

How to Change your Pain into Purpose

Okay, so you know that “feeling” inside that you get when you smell something or hear something and it takes you back in time? You can literally smell, taste, hear or feel something that brings back a memory. Well now think of this, if you can use your senses (hear, smell, touch or taste) to experience an emotion or feeling of the past, how amazing would it be if you could make your senses experience what will become in the future? If I can take you to a place you remember in the past, who is to say I can’t take you on a journey into your future? Uh, it’s “AHmAzIIng”!

You CAN change your pain into purpose. For example, I overcame the pain I was in by changing the way I thought about my pain. I hated that the source of my relationships with men started with wanting to “save them”. It came from an expectation I had in the relationship and I expected that person to deliver. I have this desire to help men overcome some pain, abuse or addiction they have because of a tragedy that happened in my life when I was a young child. The past dictated my future.

Well, I decided that instead of attracting what I didn’t want in my life, I would begin to think of things that I did want in my life. So, I wrote down all the quality’s I didn’t want in my next relationship and all the quality’s I DID want in my next relationship. (You can literally do this for every area of your life. Work, school, health, relationships, success, finances, etc.) I then looked at the list and asked myself a really hard question. “Would that guy I “want” in my life, like the person I am today?” Obviously, my answer was a big fat NO!! But, I accepted that the problem wasn’t in the men I chose, but the problem persisted inside of ME. I was the problem! I was not attracting the kind of relationships I wanted because I wasn’t living a life conducive of that which I desired. Basically, I wan’t playing the right character for the part I wanted.

Look your stage can be filled with the most extraordinary settings, but if you don’t have each character playing the right part, the show won’t be the same. In fact, people will be asking for their tickets back! (Giggles) Why do you think Broadway has so many interviews before they choose the person they want to play the lead role? Why do you think movies are so engaging? The “Character” makes or breaks a scene. You can desire all you want, but if your character doesn’t fit the part you want to play, your movie will suck!!!

So how do you use your pain to reach your purpose? That is for you to decide! What is your pain? How are you thinking of your pain? Are you even thinking of your pain? You have to become the character of the person you want to be. You have to make a decision and take “A NEW ACTION”. You have to do something different in order to get different results. We hear this all the time! Einstein’s quote gets thrown around like a damn football on a field, but no one is actually taking the time to think of underlining meaning of it’s purpose. In other words, if “doing the same thing over and over again is insanity” Could it be that “do something different over and over again is clarity”?

“Doing something different over and over again Producing different results is Clarity”
By Christina Ditzel

So what do you want? You’re not going to get it doing what your doing now. If you have feelings or emotions that cause stress, anger, fear, guilt, or shame you are living in “Survival mode” and you will never receive fulfillment in that place. You need to take the pain you have and think of a way you can heal it. After you heal your own pain, reach back and pull someone else who is experiencing the pain you’ve overcome. Do it from a place of love, compassion, understanding, and humility.

When you do everything from this new place of selflessness, without an understanding of what you already know, but with a willingness to learn something new, you begin to experience a different journey through life. You begin to find yourself around people who you will resonate with, places that inspire you, and things that excite you. You will have a new view of life, you will find a tribe to hold you accountable, and you will grow and learn with every new experience. You will begin to build a world that will offer healing for yourself and for those around you. And you will do it with love, and without prejudice.

The key is that you have to be willing to DO what others won’t. You have to lose the fear, doubt and voices in your head that say “your only one person”, “your not enough”, “you don’t have the resources”, “you don’t have the skills”, “you’re too old”, “you don’t have the experience” or any other thoughts that may cause you to stay in the very moment you are in right now. You have to change your belief system, and you have to trust in it. Live as a new Character in your world that seeks clarity with your own rules. Use the pain to get you there, but always be led in “LOVE”, and you WILL FIND YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE AND LIVE IN ABUNDANCE.

May our paths cross in the near future!!
Author Christina Ditzel

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