The awakening process kinda’ sucks! Or I could say “when you follow your intuition, life gets a little complicated”. What I am talking about is that moment when you know your different! That moment when you feel like a freaking crazy person! Like, everything you say or do people are like “umm?? huh? Standing there scratching their head looking at you like a mental case”! Seriously? Am I being irrational or is everyone else just unconsciously going through the motions of life?” It’s that feeling you get when your “changing” and the people around you just don’t get the “new you” at all? You Know what I am talking about! That feeling that has you believing in more, doing more, and yet it’s too hard to express yourself to those around you. Because every time you do….Well, you already know they will think your the weird one. Or they give you that look that comes across as “You’re insane!”
Do you have this sense of purpose straight down to the very core of your being, but you feel obliged to hide it away, to avoid hurting others? Are you experiencing a deep emotion inside of you that wants to crawl out of your skin, but you know if you said it audibly to the people around you, they would label you as crazy, insane, foolish, stupid or some other word that has “failure or loser” written all over it? Well that sucks! It’s like, “you know they’re going to have a ‘field day’ if you said or did what was really on your mind!” Yet, you still seek their approval. It’s like… “Ugh, wake up people! Life is meant to be lived and we are missing out!” Please don’t allow other people to dim your light!
If you said “Yes” to any of the above statements or questions, I want you to know that “I get you”! I get you, and you’re not alone! I know how it horrible it feels when you’ve found yourself in a place doing what everyone else in your life wants you to do, instead of doing the things that truly make sense to you. It’s like, “why do I always have to stay in the shadows, just to keep everyone else from getting their feelings hurt? Right? Well, you don’t! You are choosing to, but you don’t have to choose to anymore! It’s exhausting trying to keep that last bit of sanity, while people continue to “dumb down” everything in my great BIG world. And for what ? To boost themselves up, in their ordinary lives?Maybe I am just dreaming too big for their small minds! I don’t really know, but what I do know is that other people don’t have the vision that I have growing deep down to my very core, because they are not me! Likewise, those around you do have the same vision that you have deep down to the very core of your being! Bottom line! “They are sleep walking in their conventional existence, instead of waking up with intention!” My hope is those of you who are reading this make a decision today, to spend the rest of your days living in adventure, and with an eagerness for more!
Am I crazy or Are you just sleep walking?
Do you know what the opposite of sleep walking is? That’s right! “AWAKE!” Those of us that have experienced this “crazy awakening” process, have felt this sense of lack throughout most of our life. That lack comes from following everyone else. You know SLEEP WALKING. We have been listening to all the people who are just going through the motions, living in their predictable lifestyles, and belief systems. This is not a life most of us feel excited to “conform” to! As a result, sometimes we can end up outraged, indulging in sex, drugs, alcohol, gambling, or some other appetite to full fill our short lived satisfaction, that burns inside of us! Some of us have abandonment issues from childhood trauma. Or maybe we have been told we will need medications to maintain our mood swings or attitudes. Some of us even try serial dating or consume ourselves in work!
Whatever the case, there is a stigma in this world that if we are not all doing the same thing, or if we are different than the rest, we should be labeled and cast out at a “crazy person”! Well, I am here to encourage you to pursue your purpose. Awakening your dreams and live the life you want today! If you have a “sense” that there is MORE to your life, you think and feel different than those around you, and you see things differently, well, you are probably waking up to your true self, and I would love to see you step into that life!
If you have ever felt like you should be listening to that “still small voice inside of your head” that says, “I am not crazy, I am just ‘self-aware’ and everyone else around me is just stuck in their belief systems and routines”. Well, I am here to tell you YES! Yes, you need to be listening to that still small voice that screaming at you to be YOU! Just do all the things that feel right to you.
Okay, so I get it, being in that place where people don’t get you, really sucks! I know! And I know this because I’ve experienced it for most of my life. I always felt like there was more to this life. Like people never understood the words that came out of my mouth. No one understood that there was so much more to me! And I just always felt like a freaking ‘mental’ person! But,you know what sucked even worse? Every time I did try to step out into that “more” or be different than everyone else, my life came crumbling down on me even harder and my life would spiral out of control!
I serious began to believe I really was crazy! I literally believed it so much, that I let people put labels on me like “bipolar”, “depressed” and many others. Furthermore, I allowed them to put me on medications like Prozac. As if that shit was going to make me feel any better! “Yea lets call her bipolar and put her on drugs”. Yea, because everyone with mental issues can’t get a handle on your thoughts without drugs! LOL, yea we see how far that shit got me! Right? I found a new love for all kinds of pills. Any pill that numbed my reality! That was my life!
Okay, so now that I went off in a tangent, lets get back to “The Awaking vs The Unconscious”. So the ‘Norm’ was the average life everyone else was living! This feeling of ‘going through the motions of life and never really getting to any real destination’. That was it! That was the purpose of being here! The irony of all that makes me, “me”!!! I became who I am today, because of “All my Crazy”! I am who I am today, because I actually “WOKE UP” to this idea that we are not supposed to just reside in this world being average but, we are designed to live fully, experiencing the world in our greatest sense! No matter how out of sorts that may seem to everyone else around us! We each have a purpose and until you wake up to our true essence, we are just going to live a life completely unsatisfied! No one teaches us to embrace our true self, because that would be out of the norm. And that is just “CRAZY”. Well, I totally disagree.
OTHER SIGNS YOUR AWAKENING
- Your drawn to nature
- You realize the health of your body is important
- You begin to dislike negative and unhappy people
- Awareness of things that are unseen by others
- Desire for community
- You become more intuitive to people, places and things around you
- Your not rushed and your world moves slower
- Your at peace even in difficult times
- You have an awareness and connection to nature and all living things
- You feel different and frustrated with loved ones belief systems
WAKING UP & EMBRACING MY CRAZY
When we decide to wake up and embrace thy self, we find some pretty amazing things happen! I have encountered so many amazing people, places and things along my journey through this life, that they have literally impacted who I am today! Strangers who have encouraged, supported, and inspired me to expand my horizons! Strangers who hold no significance in my life personally, but have been some of the most crucial impacts to my character today. Animals like snakes, birds, lizards and crickets coming into my path or even annoying me to get my attention. Everyone and everything that happens along this journey has some impact and meaning in my life. And yes each one has motivated me or influences my character and the actions I take moving through my day. Those of you reading this, that follow me on social media and reach out to me and share your life with me, your interaction influences me too! When we are AWAKE, we realize the connection between everyone and everything in life. When we are awake, we see life in amazing colors.
Where I didn’t feel good enough,
I persevered into being more than enough!
Christina Ditzel
Difficulty of Awakening
It’s not always easy, but I’ve learned that I must follow my own intuition and stop asking for everyone’s opinions. I only listen to the people who help me hold more weight in my current belief system. Realize that each season will change and so will your thoughts, ideas, actions and people that influence you. Always, remember that saying that reminds us “some people are in our life for a season, some for a reason, and some for a lifetime”. Constantly tell yourself “I no longer have to conform to the world, but I am free to live and experience the world any way I choose”! Eventually, the weight of fear, doubt, scarcity, and most of all that “label” that says I am “Crazy” or “unrealistic”, will melted away! The universe is always coming to us in to take on the burdens, and declared truth to us that says things like “You are the exception! You’re allowed to be the exception!”
Accept the signs that are given to you through everything and everyone. They are humans that send quotes that say things like, “The person who gets the furthest, is the one who is willing to do and dare”. It’s the song on the radio that says “You will never stop fighting for me”. It’s a lady at the grocery store that watches me and listens to my conversation with my daughters and turns to me to say “your a good mom”! It’s the message I listen to in the morning that says something that inspires me to do something different that day. It is you who follow me and comment on my blogs, videos and social media platforms that keeps me writing. When you are AWAKE, the Divine is everywhere always showing you a way through everything.
“Ask and it will be given to you
Seek and you shall find
knock and the door will open”
Mathew 7:7
Nothing happens by chance
Here’s the thing, we can knock the dam door down, but if we don’t WAKE UP, we won’t see it! Even if it smacks us across the face! People who spoke life into me and helped me have the courage to proclaim the truth for my life, only came when I was open to it. I know now my purpose, but I could not have been “Found” if I stayed unconscious just going through the motions of life. Sleeping in my everyday life was unsatisfying and until I embraced my true self, and I embraced it, I couldn’t see the miracles that were already happening all around me!
So, wake up and be aware of the people that cross your path. Nothing happens by chance! Everything is moving you forward, but you have to be wake up to see it. Stop listening to the unconscious and listen to those little messengers that guide you and try to lead your way. When you are awake you’ll notice throughout our time here on earth, nothing happens by chance and EVERYTHING has a purpose.
So, to conclude this blog, be enough for yourself and embrace your “weird” and ignore the voices of those who live unconscious! Think of this, “The constant assurance that just because I believe in more, I have the right to become MORE” is true in every manner! This allows us to step into our purpose driven life! How uncanny, that book (“Purpose driven life”) is in my living room because it was given to me at the exact moment, in the exact time, I needed it. I believe in Divine events, so Divine events happen all the time. Believe in something big and big things will happen to you too!
I don’t believe anything happens by chance, but I do BELIEVE
Everything that happens is moving us forward into our chance
Christina Ditzel
There are constant reminders that the universe sends to guide us into our purpose. But if you are too busy taking on everyone else’s belief systems and listening to those who want to keep you in a state of unconsciousness (just going through the motions of life), you won’t hear that still small voice guiding your paths. Be Crazy enough to AWAKEN the brilliance that lives inside of you and believe in the brilliance that is YOU!
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